A Voice in the
"Keep your heart with all diligence, for out of it are the issues of life." (Pr4:23)
A 'Portion' was on the schedule for mailing this evening, but it seems appropriate to take a look at something else... if you will pardon my ramblings for a few moments...
Yesterday (6/17/03) Norma McCorvey ("Roe" of 1973 Roe v Wade) submitted a petition for the courts to re-hear her case regarding abortion. She is quoted as having said: "I'm sorry that I signed that affidavit," the original Roe vs. Wade court case "brought the holocaust of abortion" but that with her legal action Tuesday, "I feel good about myself, I really do. I feel like the weight of the world has really been lifted off my shoulders."
McCorvey is alleged to have 1) become a Christian in 1995, then 2) became a Catholic, and 3) is now "100% pro-life". While it is said she started facing the facts about "abortion-being-murder" while she was a "christian", the fact that she didn't become "100% pro-life" until after becoming catholic makes a True Believer raise one's eyebrows about that alleged claim to being "christian", doesn't it! And the fact that after "becoming a christian", she became "catholic"...well, 1Jn2:19 fits.
But...this mailing isn't about Ms McCorvey's state of salvation, or lostness. Regarding that, she must appear before the Most High and will answer to Him. She seems to have made her choices.
However, this mailing -is- about the 'life' of babies, and parents.
Something about abortion that is not very frequently publicized is the trauma that the so-called "procedure" causes for the mother. As McCorvey is prepared for this case, she apparently has 1000 co-petitioners who are ready to share in court the things that have characterized their lives after having had their abortions: they became alcoholics; hated life in general, were unable to bond with anyone; suffered from depression, various medical problems, years of mood swings and eating disorders, panic disorder and promiscuity, post-abortion syndrome; "felt empty inside;" lack of ability to deal adequately with true love and sex in marriage; went to therapy for anger and other symptoms; and...
"I'M ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT MY UNBORN CHILD."
Periodically in conversations with somebody of the world, the topic of abortion might come up. I've never yet had anybody retort to me in anger against -my- 'views', about it being "murder". But on several occasions when I've said whatever I did, I have noticed this 'expression' come over the other person. An expression for which there are no words to describe it. As though the person had suddenly been transported to another time and place in their memories... if a person could look into their soul, one would think one was seeing unspeakable guilt, sorrow, anguish, and longing... something for which they have neither words nor tears. Typically then at that point, our conversation is essentially over.
Remember the series we did awhile back called, "Life is in the Blood"?
We spoke of the 'nephesh' (soul) being in the blood. (Lev17:11) When a man and woman are together, the man gives of his soul to the woman. Well, in pregnancy it is also a 'blood' relationship. The woman gives life to the baby, and there is a relationship between the mother's blood and the blood of the baby. Menstruation is about blood. And the life of the baby begins with blood. My understanding is that, after the brain, the first organ to develop and start 'working' in the baby is the heart...the blood. Part of that mother's -soul- is in that baby. And so, when that little baby is savagely ripped apart, limb-from-limb as its little soul is screaming out in terror, by that soul/nephesh connection, the mother unconsciously 'experiences' the horror of the event, and it 'stays' with her.
Last night while flipping channels I happened upon the Maury Povich show. For whatever reason, it seems like Maury likes to specialize in running paternity tests for people (I've seen this several times in the past), to find out -who- the "real" father of some girl's baby/child is. Last night there were a couple of cases where the girl dearly wanted some certain male to be the father of her child...but they were not. In the one case, the male seemed to dearly love the girl, and when he found that he was not the child's father, he (the man) was devastated, crying/sobbing. He goes to find the girl, who has run off to a corner to cry, tries to 'comfort' the girl...
but the girl PUSHES HIM AWAY. Why? Because he is not the 'real' father. In her facial experession I saw a bit of that which I mentioned above, of that 'longing' look that some will get when the subject of abortion comes up. A look that this man she was loving, who was trying to comfort her, DID NOT 'BELONG'.
You see...it is GOD-DESIGNED! He created us all of "one blood". (Ac17:26) They speak of "blood-ties". It is very true! For all of the world's perversities, where everybody is sleeping with everybody else, like one big mongrel dog-pack, and 'liberated' women are rebelling and leaving their husbands in order to find them-SELVES, and -be- them-SELVES, nevertheless, they cannot escape God's design. It is BUILT-IN! While they are trying to run away from God's design, they find that they are taking them-SELVES -with- them-SELVES. And they cannot escape that which is part of their own very essence.
A girl gets pregnant, she has the soul/nephesh of the baby's father, and has also given in kind to the baby. The father, mother and baby are all inextricably tied together by the blood. Perhaps this is part of what God meant when He said to the woman, "..your desire shall be for your husband.." (Gen3:16) Because he's the father of your child.
As those on the Maury show were devastated to find that the ones they had feelings for were NOT the fathers of their children...they were utterly heart-broken...my immediate thought then, was: Well, then, -who- 'is' the father? How many fellows you been sleepin' around with, there, sister-girl?!? ...that you don't know who the father is??
On one hand, the sentiments: You been behavin' like a slut... (Since we mentioned dogs, dare I say it in polite company? Behaving like a b----!) these are your consequences! Don't go cryin' and whinin' to anybody about how much you are hurting. You are reaping what you sowed!! You sowed the wind, you are reaping the whirlwind. (Hos8:7)
On the other hand, there is the heart... I'm sure Maury 'means' well, when he tries to comfort these people, telling them he will help find the real father/s. (But if there is such 'caring', why is such stuff, with its heartache, being plastered all over national TV for the whole world to see?? And why do such people even agree to expose themselves in that way??)
What these people need, obviously, is the Lord Jesus Christ. Perhaps scenarios like this can help us understand Jesus' words regarding the "sinner" who had been washing His feet, "..her sins, which are -many-, are forgiven, for she loved much. But to whom little is forgiven, the same loves little." (Lk7:47) When another was brought to Him, there is a lot that is not told us regarding details, but Jesus says, "Neither do I condemn you; go and sin no more." (Jn8:11)
McCorvey spoke of the weight of the world being lifted from her shoulders due to her taking this new action to try to overturn Roe v Wade. She "feels good about herself". [VW: Isn't that special!]
The other day I saw on some program (I forget which) where one of the latest things being done, is, that single moms are searching for other compatible single moms to setup housekeeping with. Advertising/looking, much the same way many 'singles' search for 'dates/romance/marriage'. Newspaper ads, internet, etc. With the costs of daycare for working moms, and the untrustworthiness of many daycare facilities, these moms find each other with the agreement that one will be the 'worker', holding the job, to bring in the money, and the other, by agreement, becomes the house-mommy. It is not a 'lesbian' relationship...but an arrangement for mutual financial, emotional and 'family' well-being for the children's upbringing.
Now, if the women are single moms due to having been 'widowed', this sort of thing seems to me like a beautiful and wonderful concept.
But what I was seeing (and pardon me for seeming so sensitive to this issue, but I've had my heart ripped out by an ex who needed to go find "self", and do her-own-thing, I know first-hand what this is about, and easily recognize it in others; as I've also corresponded with other men who have e-mailed, whose wives left them for similar reasons; it is one of today's epidemics as the world is reverting more and more to 'goddess worship') was women who were of the mindset that they DON'T NEED THE MAN! It is a bitter rebellion in the heart of today's society's state of womanhood. Rebellion against God's design.
In the very beginning God "created them male and female" (Gen1:27) with the command to "be fruitful and multiply" (vs28) That's called a "family". The God-ordained family consists of father (male), mother (female) and children (fruitful/multiply).
While Ms McCorvey may be taking corrective action for her deeds of 30 years ago, and is gaining a certain sense of self 'forgiveness'; each of those 3-4000 abortions daily are 'individual' choices for each woman who has it done...and the doctors who perform the murders. They are 'each' answerable to God, and they each 'individually' face their own demons. They are not McCorvey's doing! If there hadn't been a Roe v Wade, they'd be doing it some other way! Before its downfall, Rome was killing its undesireable/unwanted babies, too. This is nothing new!
These rebellious single moms may pride themselves on having found a solution to their (self-made) problems, by joining up with other similarly rebellious women, and rebelling jointly, to live minus their husbands...
Those crying souls on Maury's program told it a lot closer to the truth with their cries and tears. It is built-in by God's design. Women can rebel, but in their heart-of-hearts they have "leanness [in their] soul" (Ps106:15) when things are not as they should be.
Now...as we have addressed in the past...supposing you are reading this, and -your- life is characterized by...well...you would fit-right-in with Maury's other guests...and your soul is empty, pulled inside out, and poured out on the ground. Is there forgiveness? Can your empty soul be filled?
Well...first of all, the only 'filling' that will ever satisfy is Jesus Christ. Jesus spoke with just such a woman and offered the water as of a "fountain of water springing up to eternal life" (Jn4:14)
I mentioned earlier having had my heart ripped out. Well, I truly cannot imagine what it would have been like to go through that without the Lord! (Considering what I went through, I really don't know how the unsaved world copes with it, without Christ!!) But I -did- have the Lord, and during my darkest time, -He- was continually filling me to overflowing with His love.
But salvation begins with a "confessing" of sin. (1Jn1:9) A kind of loathing of that sinful life of one who "confesses and forsakes them". Such a person finds "mercy" from God. (Pr28:13) And "receiving" Jesus Christ (Jn1:12) and His salvation; a "remission of sins" in His name. (Lk24:47, Eph1:7, Col1:14)
For a person who is Saved, can there be a lifting of that terrible weight of sin? The guilt? "As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us." (Ps103:12) Will there be a remembrance of those sins? Certainly the saved person remembers them, the depths out of which they were saved, as Paul states about himself, "Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief." (1Tim1:15) as he remembers how in his past he had persecuted the Church. (1Cor15:9) If you hadn't been sinful, Jesus could not have saved you. That was His mission, "For I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners, to repentance" (Mt9:13)
Like the little boy who pounded nails into the board when he did bad things, and then pulled them out when the sin was atoned...the board still had the nail 'holes'...in a similar fashion, just because a person gets saved does not mean that a broken arm will suddenly be un-broken. Neither will the memory of those evils deeds be forgotten...they will be in the memories...because we are yet in these bodies of "flesh and blood" (1Cor15:50) But we have the promise of the Holy Spirit. Our salvation is sealed. (Eph1:13-14) Due to those deeds, a person may still be serving out their prison term under obligations to "Caesar". (Mt22:21) But the heart, spirit and soul can feel a 'release' at knowing God's forgiveness. There may still be tears of sorrow, in remembrance of those sins and the realization of their continuing effects upon the lives (or deaths) of others, but in God's economy the promise is that "morning" is coming... When we pass from this life, into that one in the direct presence with the Lord, "...God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away." (Rev21:4) God promises: "For behold, I create new heavens and a new earth. And the former shall not be remembered, nor come to mind." (Is65:17)
So for now, keep in mind that... "...His anger is but for a moment; in His favor is life. Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning." (Ps30:5)